This was very unexpected. I originally said we will never be more than friends. But this man, I want him so bad.. He came back into my life and this past week he has done more for us than I can ever imagine. Yes I’m scared. But I’m trying to learn how to trust again.
Why does things always have to be confusing for me? When I least expect it something new comes up when I’m already confused abt where I’m at. So…..this guy from my past came back from no where and TOTALLY shocked me. I didn’t know what to say….at all. I still don’t know what to say.
We were always cool, so it was really nice to hear from him and see him after so many years. He’s such a nice person and we both have been through a lot these past few years. And hearing him talk is actually like a breath of fresh air. He makes it clear that all he wants is for me to get to know him…that statement is like 180 degree difference from the situation I just got out of. I was being pressured to jump into something that I wasn’t ready and wasn’t quite sure that I even wanted.
Not sure what’s next for me….. I never know. But all I can do is take it one day at a time.
It’s been awhile but I’m here. With everything going on I haven’t had much inspiration to write. Nothin much going on except I’m at a place right now where my head is clear and it feels so good! I went back to school to finish my Bachelors….but I took another break. But good news is, I only have two more classes to complete. My daughter is happy and healthy and will be 5 next month. We have two mini vacas planned and we’re happy. We got a fish!!!!!! He’s blue and adorable, Rae named him Jack lol. Ummm, I gave her father another chance, despite what family and friends said and he moved in a couple weeks only to realize that this wouldn’t work. But in the end, I proved it to myself….I couldn’t just listen to other ppl. So….I’m happy and content with just my daughter and I in our one bedroom apartment.
This year I wish to save more money, spend more quality time with Rae, simplify our lives, get more financially stable, and to learn who the true ME is!!!!!!